In two weeks I am having a baby – baby #3 and lately I have been a whirlwind of emotions.
I am going to blame it on the fact that I am in fact – pregnant… very pregnant.
{burst into tears…}
See, I can’t even think about what I want to write without tears springing to my eyes. For some reason this time around I have a lot of fears (and pain) that I never had with my other two.
I am so excited and blessed to be able to add another little baby to our family. I can’t wait to cuddle and snuggle this sweet little boy and watch my kids fall in love with him too. I guess my worry is that when he gets here I am going to fall apart – since I feel like I am barely hanging on now. I worry that while I am trying to adjust to no sleep, a messy house and two arms with three kids that I will fail somewhere – mostly with these two:
I always think it is sad in a way to have your baby become the older sibling and not be the baby anymore. My first two are 14 months apart. I knew I was pregnant with my daughter when my son was just 5 months old – so I feel like I never got adjusted to one baby before our darling second one came along. I have always just had 2 kids and she has been the baby for almost 2 years. She is my princess. I love when she sits on my lap and curls over my belly and snuggles with me.
Quinn loves the thought of a new baby. He and the baby are sharing rooms and he loves to show me everything that will be the new baby’s. I love when he snuggles up to me and rubs my tummy and asks to feel the baby. One night he told me “Oh! Her’s so cute!” I know he has no idea how much his life is about to change but I can tell he loves his little brother already.
I fear that the baby will be the squeaky wheel and get all the grease and I won’t be a good mother to Quinn and Tenley. This is partly why I am taking time off from blogging for a couple weeks before the baby gets here. I am 100% ready with everything the baby needs – but still have a few things on my “to-do” list to complete and they all have to do with my kids – like the zoo and the aquarium and a few more trips to the park. The Disney Channel has been a HUGE staple in our home these past few weeks and I feel like I need to make it up to them before we are confined to our house – in the cold weather – living off the Disney Channel and Mac n’ Cheese!
Along with the fear I have a lot of excitement too. How fun to add another baby to our family. I am totally and completely in love with my children – totally addicted – and cannot wait to triple the love in our home. I cannot wait to see Spencer with our baby for the first time. I cannot wait to go into recovery and see Quinn and Tenley waiting to love on their new brother and for that first family photo. I cannot wait to watch my kiddos “help” the new baby (although I am worried some smothering might occur) and give him kisses and want to hold him. I am excited to expand our family and grow in love.
and I am not going to lie… I am excited to be done being pregnant for this round! But I will really miss feeling him move all over and his every. single. night hiccups! Being pregnant really is a beautiful thing.


































